“It’s Time To Go Home”

Posted: July 16, 2019 by Patrice Miles in C.A.R.E. Africa, Lenny Miles, Miles In Missions, Missionaries, Nigeria, Patrice Miles, Prayer, SIM

“It’s time to go home.”

Those were the words my husband said to me one morning after returning from a Men’s retreat. I thought he was joking and when I realized he wasn’t, I became angry and hurt. For 48hrs I didn’t shower, barely ate and I wrestled with God. I questioned everything I believed in, my faith, my marriage, my motherhood and my life. At some point I reluctantly handed over my ego and my superwoman cape. I sat at God’s feet and just started to breathe Him in. I realized that I had been drowning under my own skin. Throughout my life God has always picked me up before I self-destructed and I realized that He was saving me from myself once again.

simkidsHe opened my eyes to the fact that my amazing son has just two years left to prepare for college and doesn’t know how to go to the grocery store, manage a checking account, drive a car, clean his own clothes, cook a meal or simply clean a toilet. My beautiful daughter has art and musical gifts that she craves to learn more about and our environment had limited resources to help her. My loyal husband, who has supported my work with C.A.R.E. Africa for 6 years, has a body ravaged with sickness that needed to heal physically as well as emotionally. Then there was me… I was so stressed from trying to raise money for C.A.R.E. Africa without ever having face-to-face time with our loyal donors or the opportunity to build new relationships that I felt the stress in the base of my neck daily.

 

superpatriceGod first, family second and work/ministry last. Once again I realized my priorities were skewed. Everyone around me was struggling including myself. It hurt to realize that all my superhuman powers had failed to save everyone. When I slowed down and breathed God in, He reminded me that He gave me wings to fly – not a superwoman cape. It was time to let go.

So what does this mean for our family and our ministries in Nigeria? It means God is in control and we are not. We are excited about this next chapter and how God is going to show off. I am eager to see my family flourish and C.A.R.E. Africa bloom into the beautiful flower God wants it to become. Stay tuned to our next blog as we give more details on our time in the U.S.A.

Comments
  1. jjandbevan says:

    It is good to hear from you.  I understand where you are coming from.  You are still young and even though tomorrow is not promised, God has taken you this far and he knows that you need a rest.  Yes, God, family and OTHER as I say.  As a Substitute Teacher, medical person this is a very important time in your kids lives.  Just having you there with them and showing them all the things they need to know in this world today will be just what they are looking for.  This world loves to teach kids to compete.  We have to show them that is not God’s way and he will help them survive.  Your kids are smart and awesome.  I have no doubt they will be fine.  Your husband needs to heal. Stay in touch, and thank you for everything.  REST this is what you being called hoe is all about. Joyce

  2. Ginger Parker says:

    Way to go – surrendered to God’s will and His desire to help you keep your eyes “open”.

  3. Joanne Inger says:

    What a beautiful family you have what a beautiful job you’ve done I admire you

    Sent from my iPhone

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  4. Cindy Borody says:

    Love you, Praying for you xx

    ~ Cindy Sent from my iPhone

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  5. Moses & Christiana Igunnubole says:

    At the period we are seriously think of you and your family, your email came. Thank God!!
    Your Ministry in Nigeria touches every area of humanity and we shall forever we shall grate to God and your Family. We shall continue to intensify in our prayer for your Family and your Ministry in Nigeria.

  6. Tom McKechnie says:

    Praise God for your clarity and know we are praying for you and your beautiful family .

  7. drtommckechnie says:

    Praise God for your clarity and know we are praying for you and your family. Love and blessings , Tom and Karen

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  8. funnerfam3 says:

    O Patrice…… love this and totally understand! 🙏 How are u doing state side?! It’s been very hard year for me. I miss Nigeria so much and really Hving a hard time adjusting back. But know this is where God Wants is. Hugs and prayers!! Gina

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